.:my life:.

2010-01-24T23:00:00.002+08:00

AGES since i last posted..
4 mths i think..
too busy to update..
it has been work work work for the past months..
haiz..
wers my personal life man..
aniwae..
did went for a japan trip end of 2009..
its a company trip though..
for abt 4 days..
suppose to take a plane back to SG on 04th Jan de..
but bcoz our plane has to transit at beijing..
n beijing was snowing heavily the day before..
our plane was delayed and we were stuck at fukuoka airport for a few hrs..
finally wen our plane can depart to beijing..
we missed our transit flight der..
so had to stay in beijing for another nite..
e best ting is..
our clothes were not meant for the weather der..
it was at -18 degrees in beijing man..
we were stuck at beijing airport for abt 2 hrs before getting an accomodation arranged..
and der after..
we still had to wait for a taxi to bring us to the hotel..
n guess wat?
the queue was super long..
we were waiting for a taxi at -18 degrees for at least 30mins..
can never imagine how cold tt was..
finally wen we board e taxi..
e taxi has no warmer..
n e trip to the hotel was lyk 1 hr??
coz e driver had to drive damn slow bcoz of the snow..
wen we reach e hotel..
e room warmer is USELESS as well!!
omg..
was freezing in the hotel room..
went over to the guys room and rested for the whole morning n afternoon of the following day..
we checked out in the evening to prepare to take the 2330hrs flight..
reached airport at 7plus and had dinner 1st before check in starts at 2030hrs..
wen we checked in and got our boarding pass..
we realized tt our flight has AGAIN been delayed till 0315hrs the next day..
goodness..
so we had abt 6hrs in the airport to burn..
after walking thru DFS for awhile..
the flight was further delayed till 0405hrs..
argh..
n the airport gets colder in the nite..
i was so glad wen we finally board e plane..
coz i reli duno if i can still survive hw much longer in tt cold..
felt so hapi wen i saw e sun in SG..
btw.. we hand picked fresh strawberries from a strawberry farm in japan..
n we were stupid enuf to pack all e strawberries in carton boxes n go by cargo..
coz wen it reach SG..
it was all smashed..
how wasted..
n i happily packed 2 boxes der..
n only ate 1 piece..
in the end..
cant eat any of those tt i picked back..
regret tt i did not eat more back in japan..
but well..
at least i stepped into japan b4..
so i guess it is not too bad a trip..

cant wait to meet my sweeties this sunday..
cya girls!!!

2009-10-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

time flies n i haf been with OHS fo 15 mths..
2dae marks my official last day with the company..
but my last day of work was on monday..
was clearing my leave for the past 4days..
did not haf much of a feeling wen i left..
no hapiness.. no sadness..
didnt even felt lyk it was my last day wen i went to work on monday..
is tt good or bad?
i duno oso..

starting my new job tis coming mon, 05th Oct 09..
its a place tt i nv tot i will be working at..
not much of a surprise though..
but its juz not sth within my tots..
felt tt i needed a change of envt..
a change of job scope..
as i dun quite lyk a sitting dwn job actually..
ppl mite tink tt i m stupid to gif up an office job..
coz many ppl wan to haf office job but cldnt get one..
n yet here i m..
giving up tis job to go for an operations job..

well..
i guess that many a times in life..
we need to learn to sacrifice sth in order to gain sth else in return..
changes will alwaz occur in life..
n we haf to learn to accept it..
good luck to me..
n hopefully i haf made e right decision..

2009-08-26T15:07:00.002+08:00

当你身边的人都是自私自利的
你知道那是什么感受吗?
当每个人都只做好自己的本份
而不管其他的人
你知道那是多么的难受吗?
当你对身边的人和事感到很愤怒时
却只能够忍耐
你知道那是多么的辛苦吗?
感觉就像是一座不能够爆发的火山一样
一直一直一直的压抑自己的情绪
真的好难受好难受
有时候真的好想装病请病假
但是却始终过不了自己心理的那一关
因为我讨厌别人装病
所以我无法做出讨厌别人做的事情
唉...
好烦好烦啊

可是现在我有一个改变的机会
却因为某种因素
让我一直犹豫不决
我是该为了金钱而继续忍受那些无奈
还是该勇敢的放下这一切而离去呢?

2009-07-05T21:21:00.006+08:00

hmm..
1st wk after start of work..
not much of a feeling..
juz felt tt ANCO seemed to haf been over for a long tym..
although its only juz 2 wks after break camp..

anw..
went to haf dim sum lunch wit my family, relatives, n my grandma..
its to celebrate post mothers' day for my grandma..
so its a treat frm my dadi n aunties..
we had our dim sum lunch at yum cha..
which is near my grandma's place..
n it was lucky my dad reserved e table ytd..
coz it was lyk long queue wen we reached der..
i didnt eat alot though..
coz not feeling tt hungry actuali..

after tt went up to grandma place for awhile..
den set off to orchard..
tot of getting a new phone for my mum..
coz her bdae is nxt wk..
while walking 2 taka..
we passed by giordano in wisma..
so my dad wanted 2 go in n see..
n ended up other than my dad..
both me n my sis oso bought sth frm der..
my dad bought 4 t-shirts..
my sis bought 2 pairs on jeans..
n i bought 2 tank tops..
so we spent $107 at giordano itself..
after tt went to hello shop at taka..
but nth seemed to catch my mum's eye..
so we went to walk ard taka instd..
i went to mango, zara, n guess on my own 1st..
did not find anyting tt i fancy..
haiz..
wen i wan 2 spend money..
cant seem 2 find anyting tt i lyk..
n i wanted to buy more working attire de..
but cant seem to find anyting appriopiate n nice..
sumtyms is not reli bcoz of e price..
is bcoz reli cant find sth i lyk..
sianz..
den i went to find mumi n dadi at e children's section in taka itself..
n mumi bought a pair of sandals + 2 t-shirts for e lil boy..
juz b4 heading hm..
we went to tis fair tt was at e taka open space area..
bought a pillow for my dad..
costing $31.50...
e promoter said e original price is $89..
but nw on sale during tis fair..
den my mum said dad shld change his pillow liaoz..
so we bought it for him..
since it is lyk so cheap nw..

so tts e end of our family outing 2dae..
hapi hapi..
coz hardly go shopping wit my family..
tml is monday liaoz..
n start of work agn..
having pre-monday blues alrdy..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

2009-06-29T22:32:00.003+08:00

有时候
觉得自己似乎是多余的
感觉自己所做的
好像没有什么
所付出的并不算什么
别人好像做的比我多
又比我好

有时候
我自己在想
自己是不是到了该放手的时候
也许少了我的存在
并不会有任何的改变
也许他们能够做的比我更好
但是我却又有种不舍
在心中不停的拉扯

放弃梦想的感受
有谁了的
因为某种重任
我必须将它暂时割舍
心中的伤痕
只能用坚强来淹没
但坚强能够延续多久
能够带我走多远
淹没多少的伤痕
我不晓得

2009-06-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

well well..
as the saying goes..
快乐的时光总是短暂的
i will be back to work in another 9.5hrs..
n the daily routine shall commence once agn..
gota say bye bye to my freedom liaoz..
n say hello to my emails n phone calls instead..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...............................

2009-06-27T11:41:00.010+08:00

Post ANCO 09 Outing (26th June 09)

went kbox in e afternoon..
wit 12 others..
officers wld be kenneth, aisuan, justin, arens, kweehaan
sncos wld be yanrong, margaret, peiling, siang ning, ying ying, pris, n jue hong..
we sang til 7pm b4 heading for dinner at botak jones..
which was juz across e road frm cine..
i had deir fish n chips..
not bad..
but i cant finish e chips..

**my fish n chips**

oh..
n i juz found out tt margaret share e same bdae as me!!
so cool..!!

**me n margaret**

after tt we decided to go PS arcade..
coz cine arcade is not fun..
n so ex sumore..
so we "hike" all e way to PS..
i played e bball game as usual..
stil cant break thru my 400+ high score last tym..
onli manage to hit 300+
so sucky..
den got intro to e new game by wt, hy, n pris..
is lyk u gota touch e boxes according to e music..
damn fun sia..
so exciting..
my new arcade addiction liao..
lol..
played till 11plus..
den went 2 SMU's underpass wit justin, zhanhui, arens, wt, n pris..
we played cards n MSN using justin's acct at e same tym..
we stayed til abt 0120hrs b4 we decided 2 leave..
coz zhanhui wil be in dead meat if he stil does not go hm..
we took quite sumtym 2 find e exit man..
coz apparently all e exits r locked once e clock hits 0000hrs..
after tt we went our seperate ways..
n i cabbed hm wit wt..
so reached hm at ard 0145hrs..
bath.. chk emls.. chat awhile..
den slept at ard 0300hrs..
so hapi..
coz its lyk a feeling of back to e old days..
lyk wen i m still in sch..
but den agn..
good times do not last..
coz in less den 24hrs..
i gota be back at work liaoz..
n holidays lyk tis will not come by again soon..

2009-06-25T14:44:00.015+08:00

just some photos taken on flyer on mon, 22nd june 09

24th June 09

back to ytd..

went out shopping wit evon n cass..

as usual..

our dear evon is late agn..

lolz..

she came ard at abt 3pm..

wen cass n i alry finished Far East liaoz..

haha..

anw..

we decided 2 head 2 wisma instd 2 do our shopping..

i saw tis nice shades at espirit in isetan..

but it was e last piece..

n no discount sumore..

so i didnt by frm der..

decided 2 go all e way to PS to chk if dey had new stocks..

so we travelled all e way der by foot..

which took us abt 30mins i tink..

under the lil drizzling rain..

finali we reached der..

n der were new stocks for my glasses..

thought for quite awhile b4 deciding to buy..

coz it cost $115 leh..

no discount sumore..

but evon say i shld pamper myself since i dun buy often..

so here's my 收获 for the day..

actualli we wanted to watch the movie "The Land of Lost" (tink tts e name of e movie)

but apparently..

der were NO time slots for tt at all!!

coz tink most of e cinemas dey open alot of slots for the opening of Transformers..

ended up we haf no movie to watch..

so we decided 2 go for dinner at pizza hut..

i had tis baked pasta wit cheese n mushrooms..

was so damn full even b4 i finish it..

but i stil ended up finishing e food..

coz dun wana waste..

chit chat over dinner..

tok abt e old tyms..

n hw life sucks nw coz we cant mit up as often..

n many many more..

left e restaurant at abt 9pm..

n headed hm liaoz..

hw i wish everyday i could go out n spend lyk tis..

but i noe it is not possible..

my holidays r ending soon..

in another 2 more days..

n is back to work..

wit all e stress agn..

sumtyms i feel lyk i m older den 21yrs old..

wen i m gg to reach 21 only..

haiz..

life is hard..

reli hard..

2009-06-22T19:47:00.003+08:00

finally..
ANCO 09 is over..
return back to mainland ytd at around 1500hrs..
after tt headed hm..
reached hm 4plus..
fell aslp on the cab..
tired lyk shit man..
unpack all my stuff, bath, ate lunch cum dinner..
den immediately fell aslp agn..
slept for straight 14hrs man..
but stil feeling slpy..
coz its lyk 4 days w/o any quality slp..
2+ hrs on 17th, 2+ hrs on 18th, 2+ hrs on 19th, 1 hr on 20th..
less than 10 hrs of slp in 4 days..
can u imagine..
tink i can even fall aslp while standing..
not to even say if sitting dwn..
lol..

anw..
to cover up for the fathers' day ytd..
2dae me n my family went to SG flyer..
to use up e tix tt Jean gaf me..
bought an additional tix online for the promotion..
n oso a student tix for my brother..
so we went up der for 30mins..
nth much actually..
juz turning 1 round lo..
imagine w/o those tix tt jean gaf me..
my whole family will nid 2 spent abt $140 to turn 1 round sia..
expensive..
after tt headed to MS for lunch..
well..
ask my dad wat he wan 2 eat..
n guess wat??
he say go food court..
aiyo..
ask him choose..
he duno wat 2 eat..
den he say food court better..
coz got more choices..
ok la..
so we went food court for lunch..
after tt strolled ard n decided to go back hm..
b4 tt..
we went to tiong bahru plaza's arcade..
coz my brother wana play..
so i tag alg to play e basketball game..
2dae totali not in good shape..
alot of times oso cnt get e ball in..
got 1 tym i played up to sect 4 man..
total 400+ pts sia..
2dae..
cant even get past sect 2..
sianz..

so tts lyk wat i haf done on my 1st day of official leave..
other than ANCO 09..
got 5 more days to go..
i wana go out out out..
shopping..
ktv..
n watever is fun!!
coz after tis wk..
is back to WORK..
n my freedom will be gone agn..
muz FULLY UTILISE tis wk man..
haha..

2009-06-08T22:00:00.005+08:00

FAC 2009

yesterday was THE DAY..
the annual Zone 10 FAC..
the day wen all the members showcase deir hardwork n effort tt was put in..
just for tis ONE DAY..
i muz say GESS members haf reli done deir best..
it juz felt good to see deir hardwork being awarded in the end..
although dey did not clinch the champion..
but being in 2nd place already made dem a winner..
n i m reli proud of dem..
espcially the nursing teams..
who managed to clinch 2nd n 3rd place in Home Nursing..
great job!!
coz Home Nursing has alwaz been our weakest point..
to tink of the past..
wen i was in the competition..
we got only 50+ out of 200 marks..
cant imagine tt..
but now..
dey haf managed to clinch a trophy 4 it..
which i tink is a very good improvement for us..
although i haven been dwn 2 train dem..
but wen e results were being announced..
i was oso quite nervous..
coz it means the glory of GESS SJAB..
n i m proud to be part of tis family..
ONWARD GESSIANS!!

RESULTS of FAC 2009 for GESS SJAB
AMBULANCE ADULT (OVERALL 2ND)
2nd in Footdrill
2nd in FA Long Case
2nd in FA Short Case
3rd in TOC

AMBULANCE CADET (OVERALL 2ND)
2nd in FA Long Case
1st in FA Short Case

NURSING ADULT
2nd in Home Nursing

NURSING CADET (OVERALL 2ND)
1st in Footdrill
3rd in Home Nursing
3rd in FA Case

Total: 25 Trophies!!!!

2009-05-27T23:28:00.005+08:00

well..
i m feeling EXTREMELY FRUSTRATED today..
reason being??
i haf to pay for wat NOT done by me..
n it juz happen i was the 1 who created the booking in the 1st place..
n tt i was KIND enuf to leave a note 4 dbl confirmation..
n i m KIND enuf 2 follow up wen dey qns..
even though the amendments were NOT made by me..
and wen now sth goes wrong..
it seems lyk its ALL MY fault..
asking me how i wan 2 settle it..
seriously i duno hw to answer..
the ting is..
in the 1st place..
i WAS NOT even the 1 who amended it!!
n reason claim for no changes done on another end for this error..
was bcoz wen i KINDLY followed up..
i DID NOT specifically mention to CHANGE..
tts y nth was done..
i reli dun understand..

human beings r juz weird..
wen i be TOO detailed..
ppl follow blindly..
nv check n qns even wen der is an error..
wen problem arise..
it becomes MY PROB..
fine..
now i NOT in detail le..
tinking dey wld understand..
but end up..
ppl nv follow..
got problem agn..
and its AGN MY FAULT..
so wat now??
should i be more detailed??
or be less detailed??
i really duno..
i am soooooooooooooooo CONFUSED..

我真的真的很想放手
去寻找更好更刺激的挑战
因为在这里
我似乎只看到
人类自私的心
我虽然沉默寡言
但是我真的快发疯了！！！！
人的忍耐是有限度的
我觉得自己的忍耐
已经超越了我的极限了
因为每当有事情发生的时候
最终我还是得自己安抚自己
告诉自己要坚持下去
为了一个字
钱

2009-05-24T21:30:00.003+08:00

it was a long long day ytd..
a long long waiting day..
reason being??
i went to cineleisure..
n took part in the auditions for 我要唱下去..
which is the chinese version of Dont Forget the Lyrics
haha..
well..
other than getting a chance to 展现歌艺。。
oso got chance to win $500,000 leh..
who dont wan sia..
so i decided to go for it..
i went der after work ytd..
so reached der abt 1 plus..
it was during deir lunch break..
so after their lunch break..
the audition continued again..
continued frm 1135..
my number was 1204..
so i tot mebe wait 2-3 hrs jiu my turn liao..
in the end..
waited until 8plus den is my turn..
n i was the 5th last person on the day..
many who came after me was asked to come back agn 2day..
coz dey cant audition so many ppl in one day..

the way dey audition is dey will get u to fill up a form 1st..
den after tt..
dey will provide u wit a list of 50 songs..
frm der u haf to choose 5 songs..
which u tink u r best at remembering the lyrics..
den frm e 5 songs..
dey wil juz pick 1 for u to sing..
which u wldnt noe which song until u step into the room..
dey will play e song until a certain point in time..
den dey will pause e song..
n u haf to continue n sing..
but ar..
is not continue 1 sentence leh..
is continue until dey say stop la..
so big diff frm on TV lo..
so wen its my turn...
dey chose my choice of 张韶涵's 爱上爱的味道..
in front still ok..
but wen dey pause de song liao ar..
i jiu nervous liao..
my whole brain lyk gone blank..
so i sing until near end of chorus..
i totali 4gt e last 2 sentences lyrics..
den i stunned der for quite sometime..
but stil cant rmb..
so dey juz said nvm.. can le..
den dey ask me wen i join project superstar..
go until which level..
coz i got write this in my application form..
so i said 1st level jiu out le..
den dey ask is got go on TV de izit..
den i said no..
is 1st level audition round jiu out le..
haha..
so den dey juz said ok and thank u liao..
lyk so fast la..
u dont even need to do any intro of urself..
go in e room.. dey play e song.. u juz follow n sing..
wah..
actuali i noe e lyrics of e song de lo..
but cause dey pause so suddenly..
den w/o e music i jiu lyk totali blank liao la..
so wasted man..
juz hope i stil get some chance of getting thru e auditions..
coz i tink if u can rmb e lyrics but voice not gd ar..
dey mite nt choose oso ba..
hope dey will tink tt my voice is still alrite and let me thru??
haha..
money money leh..
but its stil a good wait worth though..
coz got to noe a few new frens..
and had quite some laughs during the wait..
coz we had 2 change lyk 4 waiting rooms before its our turn la..
but i only manage to get 1 of the other contestant's contact no..
her name is Zyla..
nice n unique name..
oso '88 yr de..
so we same age..
hope we both can get in..
lol..
if dey show my audition shots on TV..
dont be surprised..
but i m quite paiseh oso sia..
coz i tink i look quite stupid wen i stunned dwn der..
ARGH!!!
wish me luck man!!

2009-05-16T20:50:00.004+08:00

this is gona be an SJ related post..
so Non-SJ ppl..
pls bear wit me ok?
(if any1 ever reads tis i mean..)

so lets begin..
i went to ubin today...
ages since i last went der..
probably 5 yrs ago was e last tym i went ubin..
today's trip der is for ANCO Camp recee..
this yr's camp gona be at NPCC Campsite located at ubin..
1st tym camping in ubin..
unique..
well... gess ppl were late..
coz waited for the bus lyk 20mins at Tampines?
so wen we reach der is lyk 9.30am le..
nvm..
so den set off to ubin..
reached der.. rented bike.. n off we go..
cycled all e way to e campsite..
goodness..
slopes here n der..
up slope was madness..
partially coz i m short..
den e seat muz adjust lower..
or else my feet cant touch e ground sia..
so wen gg upslope was tiring..
even though hw much i tried to speed up b4 e slope..
end up stil haf 2 come dwn e bike n complete e slope..
anw..
finally reached e campsite..
saw e campsite..
n did a lil survey walking der..
den we went in search for a night walk area..
which was sumwer behind e campsite..
after tt we decided 2 set off back to e jetty..
juz wen i was trying to move off..
sth happened..
e gear chain of e bike actually came off..
argh..
sickening..
so i tried 2 fix it back..
but cannot work..
n even got my fingers wit e black oil tingy tt is on the chain..
den justin came to help me..
lucky can fix..
he said it could be bcoz i changed e gear of e bike..
tts y e chain came off..
but i cant rmb wen did i changed it..
well.. nvm abt tt..
lucky stil can cycle..
so after tt we set off back to changi jetty..
had a mini mtg at e coffee shop der..
den off we go our separate ways..

e others went 2 HQ to oversee FAC Training..
i didnt go coz i felt i go le oso do nth..
so we parted at Tampines..
while i went to stroll around Tampines 1 Mall on my own..
coz it is new n i nv come b4..
n oso bcoz its FAR frm my hse u see..
so since i m der le..
i decided to stay n 'scan' through e mall..
i muz say its not reli very big..
e shops r fine..
nth reli special i would say..
nth reli catch my eyes dwn der..
but e jap food restaurant tt was advertised on TV..
goodness man..
long queue..
but e food reli looked kinda nice on TV..
having tots to go der n try e food 1 day..
but duno wen den free sia..
haha..
well.. after strolling..
its home sweet home..

tts all for now..
will update wen i feel lyk der is sth 2 update..
lol..

2009-05-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

to all my dearest frens..

this will be my FIRST English post for the Year 2009..
for the sake of darling Jean's request.. (just for u my girl..)
and to tink that now is already in MAY!!
goodness.. time flies lyk nobody's business..
half of 2009 gona be GONE SOON!!
and i haf not achieved anything that i wanted yet..
at least not anything within this year..
haiz..

well..
i haf started off my 21st year of my life with a new resolution..
its not any big dreams..
but its a long endurance to a certain matter in life..
its forcing me to take tings in a different manner..
n i haf to learn to put dwn all my wants at tis point in tym..
even though i reli want to haf it so badly..
i would say life is reli unpredictable..
i never tot i would be doing tis at tis age..
but its my decision to haf decided to step in to try to salvage tis situation..
and i cant back out of it alrdy..
as i do not wan tings to go back its old ways..
the only ting i can do now..
is to provide the best of wat i can do..
to minimize further harm to be done..
n try to make tings beta for the future..

but then agn..
i muz admit that at times..
i reli do feel very very helpless..
helpless that there is a limit to wat i can do..
helpless that i m not able to turn to anyone to tok abt it..
helpless that i am alwaz e one to comfort myself..
i ever question myself..
y is my life lyk tis?
i m only 21..
i stil haf alot tt i wan to do..
n now being the tym tt i m capable to achieve it..
i m being tied dwn wit a responsibility..
of all times i would say..
it juz makes me feels so down many a times..
but i noe..
tt if i did not do wat i haf done now..
i m sure none of us will ever be hapi in the future..
n i reli do not wan to see that happen..
NEVER EVER..

2009-04-21T23:12:00.003+08:00

昨天
真的感到很沮丧
真的好讨厌好讨厌自己
讨厌自己为什么会犯错
而且是自己无法原谅自己的错误
为什么呢？
为什么我会如此的失误呢？
我真的不明白
一整天的心情
就在一瞬间的
跌到了谷底
好想就这样的消失掉
却被不能丢弃的工作捆绑着
有时候真的觉得
工作
并不是看你付出了多少的努力
而是看你犯下多少的错误
来衡量你的能力有多少
我常告诉自己
一定要努力超越自己的能力
要做别人做不到的事
要证明自己的能力
即时累了
也从不让自己停下脚步
因为我有着不能输的理由
绝对不能

2009-04-05T22:58:00.003+08:00

从来没有如此的害怕过
他的表情，言语，行为
让我非常地害怕
很害怕就这样失去他
心中的恐慌
到现在还是无法忘记
昨天的那些片断
还是历历在目的在我脑海里
让我在今天每一次想起时
都会想再度落泪
那份恐慌和害怕
也许是我永远都抹不去的伤痕
深深的烙印在我的心里
挥之不去

2009-02-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

今天原本又是平静又普通的一天
但是！！
我今天做了一件
我从没想过自己会去做的事
从来不曾去 Eastpoint Mall 的我
今天在下午一点多左右时抵达那里
原因就是。。
S.H.E. 今天在那里办签名会！！
哈哈！！

其实我从来都没有去过任何一个艺人
在新加坡办的签名会
因为一定会有很多的歌迷
然后一定很吵又很挤
会很受不了
但是今天我却破例的去了
也不知道为什么
但就突然想去
所以今天我很准时的在一点钟就下班了

其实当我到了 Eastpoint Mall 看到那么多人时
就有一点像放弃了
因为我总觉得
把时间用在等待那几秒的见面，握手，和签名
是有点在浪费时间
不过！！
我今天还是排队了
排了三个多小时
终于拿到了S.H.E. 的签名
其实有点看不懂他们的签名
可能因为排到我的时候
她们都已经签了三个小时了
也许累了
所以签名也跟着累了

近距离的看见了她们的本人
也没什么感觉啦
就像普通人一样
只是很少有这种机会
和她们近距离的接触
我也有更它们握到手
但是没说到话
因为不知道要说什么
我不像那些歌迷那么的疯狂
还会把自己的名字告诉她们
因为我觉得她们有那么多的歌迷
因该也没办法记住那么多歌迷的名字吧
我是属于默默支持的那种
就是喜欢就会买专辑
但不会去追星

其实今天是因为在电视上一直看到预告
就突然想说去看看场面到底是如何的
然后既然今天也没事做
所以就决定去那里
看能不能拿到签名咯
也算是要打破郁闷的生活啦
因为平时都在忙于工作
然后唯独休息的一天半
会有一天就会花掉去奶奶家
然后剩下的半天
就是放工回到家后呆在家
等待再度开工的星期一
真的是好闷啊！！
但工作的生活就是如此
而我现在有了一个
不能轻易跳槽的理由
所以我想啊。。
我应该会在这份工作上
呆上一下子咯。。

2009-01-31T19:04:00.002+08:00

人生
就是如此的现实
有很多事情
并不是一直的努力
就能够获得的

冷静的思考后
终于做了一个决定
是一个必须先把梦想
搁在一旁的决定

失望必然存在
心痛也无法避免
但我相信
这因该是目前
最好的决定

2009-01-29T11:54:00.003+08:00

有句话叫做
“人因梦想而伟大”
但我的梦想
却因为某些原因
而不敢伟大

有时候
总觉得不知该如何是好
是该为我想要的前进
还是先解决那问题
真的很矛盾

我的生活
不见得很差
但也不见得很好过
因为有些问题
我也只能无奈的面对

心中复杂的感受
却不知道该怎么形容
也不知道能向谁述说

很多时候
总是要把泪水倒流
要一而再再而三的
把失望的心情再度淹没
隐藏在心里最深处的角落
然后再鼓励自己
要更加更加的加油

有一句话
真的没说错
“钱不是万能，但没钱，也是绝对万万不能”
唉。。。
难道我们活着
就是为了当钱的奴力吗？
我很不服气
但在这个时候
却又无可奈何

2008-12-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

oh yea..
finally ended ZPL 08..
n tts the end of SJAB in 08..
for the moment..
2dae's ZPL was alrite..
although abit delay in the starting..
but everything still manage to end early than wat we estimated..
didnt reli taste the food..
coz dun even haf tym 2 sit dwn..
only tasted abit of the cold dish n the so called shark's fin..
which tasted alrite..
but the committee had a dinner after tt..
it was sumwer near jalan besar stadium..
cant rmb e restaurant name..
the food der also alrite..
but the ppl der juz felt abit weird..

aniwae..
i was so angry wit myself 2dae..
coz i woke up late..
den wen preparing uniform 4get to put shoulder flash..
n i only realised tt wen i already entered the mrt stn..
so nvm..
decided to cab dwn instead..
den wen rushing out of the mrt stn 2 flag a cab 2 go hm pick up shoulder flash den go CSC..
along the way to CSC den realize i left my shoe bag at the mrt stn..
wah..
i felt lyk killing myself man..
bcoz of all tis 4getting n rushing..
i wasted $13.40 on cab fare..!!!
wen i could haf only spent less than $2 for the trip der..
its lyk 6 times the amt can..
n $13.40 is enuf for me to go work to n fro for at least 6 - 7 days can..
wah..
i reli damn heart pain lo..
haiz..
but wat 2 do..
all over le..
nth tt i can do abt it..

so there goes for Year 2008..
its an ending approaching.. yet a new beginning awaiting..
awaiting 4 wats installed for the Year 2009..

2008-12-08T19:59:00.002+08:00

juz ended atc 08 ytd..
soooooooooo tired...
slept for 14hrs straight...
frm 5pm ytd til tis morning 7am for work..
long time since i had such long n undisturbed slp..
lolz..
tink e last time i went for atc was in 2004..
my last yr of sec sch life as an nco..
since den i nv stayed thru for atc up till tis yr..
felt lyk back into sec sch life wen back in camp..
although its short..
but i felt it was a real tough 1 for e members..
look forward to the next atc..

back to work today..
sianz..
saw tt ultra loads of emails..
felt lyk fainting..
did wat i could n left 4 e day at 3pm..
suppose to end at 1pm though..
went to far east tinking of buying myself a new pair of heels..
but.. haiz..
cant find any1 tt caught my eye..
so i guess i m stuck with my old pair 4 another some time..

zpn 08 is tis coming saturday..
hurry hurry come n go man..
den tts e end of 2008..
gona be another fresh new start in yr 2009..
gota be prepared for wateva is gona be installed for e yr..
i kip saying i wana "retire" for the following yr..
but ar..
alwaz end up with 1 ting or another..
lolz..
funi me..
duno wat i will be involved in nxt yr agn..
haha..
good luck to me..

"music classes.." "car.." "XXts.."
which 1 shld i start on 1st??
haiz..
i seriously need money..
awaiting 4 my bonus now..
lolz..

2008-11-29T22:02:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy 4 e mth..
coz we r changing into a new system..
derfore e reservations that we made haf 2 key twice..
in e current system n oso in e new system...
goodness..
time lyk not enuf to use sia..
this wk was e worse..
coz its e last wk..
so we muz clear all e reservations n make sure is in e new system..
tired sia..
ytd worked straight 13hrs..
n the day before worked 12hrs..
2dae suppose to oni work 4 hrs..
but end up i worked 9hrs..
coz i went 1 hr earlier..
n left 4 hrs later..
reli alot to do sia..
1st dec gona officially start using the new system le..
but ar..
got sumtings stil lyk not complete la..
lyk tis cannot do.. tt cannot do..
oso duno hw sia..
haiz..
but stil gota work no matter hw..
lolz..
oh.. anw the new system is actually OPERA..
which we haf actually learnt b4 in yr 2 in NP..
but tink e one we learnt was Version 3 or sth..
the one we r using now is Version 5..
the latest one..
its lyk a recall of what we haf learnt..
some tings were e same actually..
n der were stil some memories of it..
but coz nw i in reservations..
so we mainly touch on the reservations side only..
while in sch is abit of everything..
from FO to RSVN to HSEKPG...
i guess wat we learnt were actually not reli a waste..

anw.. suppose to meet jean, cass, evon tml de..
butz last minz jean gt training..
n my dad wana celebrate my sis bdae earlier on tml as well..
sooooooo...
postponed AGAIN....
hahaz..
no choice lo..
we can onli meet up again wen we all r free..
KIP IN TOUCH MY FRENS!!!!

2008-10-29T19:29:00.004+08:00

想了一个晚上...
那份冲动...
也渐渐淡了...
开始觉得...
也许现在真的不是时候...

所以我做出了一个决定...
就是将那梦想...
给搁后一年...
然后在这一年内...
我要努力的赚钱...
把基础给打好...
同时...
也要在这一年内...
增加自己对它的了解...
去研究它的趋势...
了解它的市场...
希望在一年后...
能够做出更好...
和自己最想要的选择...
所以我会让自己更乐观...
希望一年后的今天...
能够拥有到它...

2008-10-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

我想...
我的梦想...
又要再次被破碎...
再次的往后移动了...

也许真的有点冲动...
也许可能会造成后悔...
但是...
有些事情...
日子久了...
感觉也会没了...
那份热诚和冲动...
也就会消失不见...
到时候...
即使真的能够拥有...
也已经没有兴奋的感受了...

2008-10-20T11:46:00.004+08:00

half into month of October 08 already..
goodness..
and soon its gg to be year 2009 le..
n CNY will be around the corner..
life same as ever..
but ytd was quite a good day..
although in the morning was kinda spoilt by some interview tingy..
but evening was great..
coz went 2 celebrate jh & sh bdae..
though not say a grand 1 or wat..
but it was lyk a gathering & update on each other's life..
great 2 haf every1 tog..
but short of jm though..
anw..
dey went 2 watch a movie w/o me, kh & betty..
coz we cant make it..
after tt we had dinner at pizza hut..
actuali i already quite full frm lunch..
but stil ate some der..
after dinner had 2 send jh off as he has 2 book in..
so 8 of us queued for the taxi..
but actuali onli he is gona take it..
haha..
damn funi..
den e rest decided to haf a drink at TCC..
so der we went n ordered some drinks..
den we started playng truth & dare..
but didnt touch on e dare part..
coz scared kena scolding..
so we only played truth all e way..
den kept on asking abt relationship issues..
lol..
so funi..
lots of interesting n unknown stuff were all said during e game..
laugh until i almost cried..
coz some r reli damn funi..
me & mary only were asked once..
coz e ting never ever stopped at us..
haha..
but well..
ders nth 4 me to ans anyway..
lol..
boring person i am..
haha..
we stayed der n chatted until dey closed at 11pm..
so after tt we all headed diff ways..
me n zs went 2 e same bus stop to take diff bus hm..
mary, jas, betty took another bus at another bus stop..
while kh & sh took train..
kh back hm n sh back to her uni hostel..
so tts abt it for ytd..

2dae i m on LEAVE!!!
PH leave..
coz i worked on hari raya..
so tis is lyk a replacement..
i rather work on PH..
der is a secret to why it is so..
but i dun wana say it here..
if anybody wana noe..
can ask me directly..
haha..
anw..
2dae gona go out 2 celebrate evon's bdae..
i noe its not e actual day..
but we gota find a date tt all of us can make it..
so 2dae is e day!!
haha..
evon wana go minds cafe..
so tts wer we gona head to lata..
checked out the website abt it..
it has food & i tink can play games de..
but nt reli sure how e system works though..
so we r so gona explore tt place 2dae..
haha..

i tink tis post is long enuf le ba..
hope ms evon is hapi wit tis..
lol..

*******to be continued in time 2 come......................................*******

2008-09-27T23:11:00.003+08:00

time reli flies..
my 3 mths probation is up!!
nw i m a CONFIRMED staff le!!
haha..
finally gt staff benefits le..
can take annual leave le..
n medical leave..
but stil getting paid..
lol..
but life is stil juz as boring..
work n work n work..
nv go out to enjoy..
coz dun dare to go out oso..
once go out jiu wil spend money..
den lidat jiu no money le..
i wana faster save more money to buy my car..
hahaha..
my mum's fren say we new license de dun drive sports car..
best is start driving normal small size cars 1st..
i guess tts quite true oso..
anw e honda integra tt i was aiming 4 already sold out in 2006..
not even in production anymore...!!!
haiz..
nw muz change target le..
but lyk duno wat to aim 4 le sia..
coz all these while i haf been tinking of tt car..
n e only way to own tt car is 2 buy 2nd hand..
but my dad say 2nd hand nt good..
coz u duno hw e previous owner take care of e car..
n tt alot of tings to look out 4..
plus e price to pay 4 e 2nd hand car..
he said mite as well go buy 1st hand..
haiz..
true oso la..
but den i duno wat to buy liao lidat..
honda or mazda?
duno which 1 to choose sia..
haha..
but nw oso tink onli..
no money yet..
LOL..
update till here ba..
nth 2 write le..
haha..

2008-09-09T21:39:00.002+08:00

hmm..
almost 3 wks since i last updated i guess..
well..
it goes to show hw boring my life is..
work work work..
earn earn earn..
save save save..
plan plan plan..
haiz..
sian sia..
recently der was tis trainee hu came..
wil work til end of oct..
she is only 1 yr younger..
but i feel lyk she is so much younger..
coz as compared to me..
she is so bubbly n noisy..
juz speak wat she feels..
juz say wat she wans..
hw i wish i was lyk her..
but i juz cant..
its not in me..
too much tings on mind to tink abt..
i cant be lyk her..
honestly speaking..
working life is reli damn boring..
travelling b/w work place n home..
other than these 2 places..
jiu shi grandma place n driving ctr..
boring rite..
e only good ting abt work is..
is e money tt comes in end of e mth..
haiz..
life is all abt being practical sumtyms..

anw..
nxt thurs is my TP test le..
scared sia..
coz i stil not very confident..
especially in lane changing..
coz its e most crucial part when driving on e road..
its a CNFM will do ting..
2nd killer is blindspots..

GOOD LUCK to me!!

2008-08-16T22:57:00.003+08:00

its already 16 aug 2008..
halfway into month of august le..
goodness..
n we r more than halfway to end of 2008 le..
how fast!!
already 2 mths into my current job..
well..
nth much to comment..
similar routine everyday..
waiting for weekends to come..
den hate e starting of e week...
kinda boring actuali..
sitting in front of e comp everyday..
trying to clear e never ending emails..
n handling irritating phone calls most of e tym..
wonder hw long i can stay here..
haha..
i seem to alwaz say tt for every job i found..
lol..
nw i m tinking to stay lyk 6 mths here instead of 1 yr..
coz its reli quite boring..
n i m not reli able to hit off well wit e ppl here..
coz diff race..
diff age..
n no common enemy to gossip abt..
no same interests to tok abt oso..
shld juz say i cant make myself mix wit dem..
all i reli look forward to is actuali to get pay at e end of every mth..
so tt i can save up for my dreams..
lyk car..
music classes..
travel..
argh..
lots of money needed..
i shld start planning on wat i wana do after 6 mths..
haha..
lyk probably wat new job i shld look for..
LOL..

2008-07-30T15:52:00.002+08:00

gotten my 1st full mth pay slip..
hapi..
but at e same time..
starting to learn many truths..
1 of it wld be e ppl who noes hw 2 act hardworking..
but actuali dey r plain lazy..
or mebe dey r weak..
so abit jiu cnt work le..
nid lotsa rest..
oh well..
mebe coz dey r kinda in e middle age le..
cant help it..
den dey oso v good at acting good..
lyk teach u everything n all..
but in e end..
dey wil throw tings tt dey dun wana do to u..
say until lyk dey gt no time 2 do..
but dey freaking haf lotsa tym 2 do it..
dey juz DUN WANA do..
so throw 2 newbies 2 do..
den also wil tok behind ppl's back..
although i dun understand..
but i can feel frm e way dey speak..
i very sensitive de..
so i can feel it is tt way..
n frm e facial expressions..

wat r these ppl doing man..
is tt all dey noe hw to do in deir lives??
gossiping abt others..
acting hardworking but actuali r e most lazy ones..
cant believe it..
its bad to learn e truth sumtyms..
but i guess tts wat working life is all abt..
we gota learn it n accept e way it is..
unless we decide to change..

haiz..
tts working life..

2008-07-28T12:01:00.002+08:00

had my 19th driving lesson ytd..
finally booked my Practical Test le..
it will be on 18th September 2008..
which is another abt 8 weeks frm nw..
quite fast i suppose..
juz hope i pass on 1st attempt..
but hearing on hw many ppl failed..
it seems a lil scary..
but i m quite hapi with my progress..
coz e counter guy who helped me book my test said i was quite fast..
n even my instructor say i haf no problems..
haha..
seriously hope so la..
so much money put in..
i dun wana fail man..
lol..

i did parking ytd..
n it did not seem as difficult as it was..
as long as we follow e procedure..
it is actuali alright..
n i did both vertical n parallel in 1 lesson..
haha..
der goes e end of my lessons..
nxt lesson onwards will be revision..
n den finali is to take e 2 auto lessons..
so excited for my test..
although it is stil lyk 2 mths away..?
lol..

HAPPY DRIVING TENGZ!!!

LOST IDENTITY

2008-07-16T22:10:00.003+08:00

14th July
Betty's Bdae..
went timbre to haf dinner..
e food was ok..
i didnt order any drinks..
but e service was not very gd..
but e most "interesting" ting tt happened tt day was not the dinner...
not at work..
but is tt e ting i nv dreamt wld happened actuali happened..

[[I LOST MY EZ-LINK]]

well..
mebe some of u mite say..
"aiya.. ez-link onli ma.. no big deal.."
true..
if its a normal ez-link tt u purchase frm e station..
definitely no big deal..
coz it has no meaning n worth..
but its my POLY EZ-LINK 4 goodness sake..
e one tt was wit me 4 e past 3 yrs..
tt is my 2nd identity other den my IC..
at least i stil look lyk a student wen i present my student card..
now tt i lost it..
its no more student priviledges for me..
say byebye to the student meals..
say byebye to the student entitlements..
but of coz..
tt is not reli impt..
the ting is tt wen i hold e card..
i feel tt i m kind of diff frm e working ppl..
lyk i hold a diff identity frm them..
although i m oso working..
haiz..
no more of tis feeling le..
sianz..

well..
mebe its trying to tell me..
i nid to start a new phase le..
i shld learn to accept e new changes coming alg..
n not hold on to e identity tt haf alredi passed..
but still..
it takes tym to forget n get used to new tings..
its all abt adaptation..
tts wat life's all abt..

2008-07-06T00:13:00.002+08:00

1/2 a mth since i last updated..
haha..
i m lazy..
coz duno wat to update..
started my new job last monday..
started off wit a super slow orientation..
almost fell aslp..
was on the job starting frm the 2nd day..
so up till now is abt 10 days on the job le..
well..
reservations is fine..
learnt hw to key in diff kinds of reservations..
juz lyk OPERA in HOM..
although i cant reli rmb a single shit of it..
so even though dey r gona change e system frm FIDELIO to OPERA soon...
i dun tink my basic forgotten knowledge of OPERA cld be useful at all..
LOL..
haf not handled any calls reservations yet..
coz haven learnt how to do so..
but i muz say..
the calls were reli irritating wen all starts ringing at e same time..
n sumtyms i wish i cld pick up 1 to help ease e sound..
but i didnt want to act smart n make mistakes..
so gota let it ring wit irritation..
shld be starting to ans calls nxt wk le ba..
nervous nervous..
u noe..
i feel tired more easily after starting work..
its more of lyk mental tiredness den physical tiredness..
coz its lyk doing nth but juz using the computer..
n not moving ard at all..
it makes me feel so lazy wen i get hm..
dun reli lyk tis feeling..
coz it will cause me to gain weight easily ya see..
i rather be getting tired by running abt..
den getting tired by juz sitting der..
haiz..
but 4 e sake of money..
i shall persevere..
lets see hw long this perseverence stays..

anyway..
decided to meet cass evon n jean 4 movie 2dae..
but jean gota work..
so its me cass n evon..
we watched WANTED..
coz cass wanted to watch WANTED..
haha..
e movie was actuali kinda funi at parts..
but it was kinda bloody too..
violence ya see..
tts y it is rated NC16..
after movie we walked frm PS to Taka..
browsed ard abit den had dinner at KFC..
coz i had tis sudden craving for the Cheesy BBQ Meltz..
haha..
after dinner we walked to far east to shop ard..
den headed home after walking 4 awhile..
coz lyk nth much to shop oso..
n no money either..
haha..

well..
tts all i haf to update..
probably my nxt update wil be lyk another 2 wks frm now..??
unless i haf sth interesting to post..
haha..

2008-06-15T19:42:00.004+08:00

another 1 more week of freedom..
n i will be starting work!!!
my new job is at orchard hotel..
or rather shld say my 1st OFFICIAL JOB..
holding the position of RESERVATIONS SALES EXECUTIVE..
they pay is not bad..
was what i expected..
so i haf nothing to complain abt money..
the T&Cs of the agreement were not bad too..
so was the staff benefits package..
so now it juz depends on the actual job scope itself..
starting on 23rd June 08..
which is next monday..
not much of a feeling to it actuali..
juz glad tt i m finali ending my INCOMELESS LIFE for lyk the past 7 weeks??
gosh..
wondered hw i survived man..
especially during May..
wen i reli stayed at hm flipping through papers everyday..
trying to look for a job n sending resumes with no replies..
at least i could stil kill abt 2-3hrs everyday during June by taking up driving classes..
so to keep myself occupied n out of the hse to breathe some fresh air..
now that i m finally going to work..
i need to plan on my finances..
came up with a financial forecast sumore..
on hw to plan my monthly income..
lyk wer, wat, n hw much to spend on..
hope it reli works well..
n tt my actual spendings will be below my forecast..
lol..

target for next year ---->>> TRIP TO JAPAN!!!

2008-06-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

had my 6th practical lesson 2dae...
went ard e circuit e whole lesson to complete my module 1..
did sharp right turns & left turns..
did reli badly e 1st tym..
kip gg into others lane..
lucky no other cars in e way..
hahaha..
so e instructor showed me hw 2 do it correctly once..
den its my turn to do it agn..
well..
i became beta after a few tyms..
haha..
i m now better at my moving off le..
stalled e engine onli once 2dae...
n my braking seems to haf improved a lil..
hapi hapi..
frm nxt lesson onwards will be on e road most of e tym le..
until wen its tym to learn parking i guess..
den wil be back in e circuit agn..

went 4 an interview at orchard hotel 2dae..
applied for e position of reservations sales executive..
e interview went quite well i suppose..
hope can get e job..
den i can finally stop my incomeless life le..
lol..

2008-06-03T21:21:00.003+08:00

had my 4th practical lesson 2dae..
n i went onto the REAL ROAD!!!
omg..
scary..
wen u r travelling alg side wit all e experienced drivers..
its reli scary..
especially at the junction..
coz tts wer alot of cars meet u see..
i went up to 4th gear..
travelling at lyk 50km/hr??
FAST sia!!
but den..
the instructor says my braking n moving off stil muz work hard..
coz i stalled the engine on the road lyk THRICE 2dae??
coz i released the clutch too fast wen moving off..
n as 4 braking..
i alwaz either brake too early..
or brake too late..
which caused a lil jerking of e car..
not good..
haiz..
but NVM!!!
i stil haf another 3 more lessons 4 the week..
hopefully by end of the week i can be beta at both..
5th lesson tml!!!
cant wait!!! =>

2008-05-30T22:45:00.003+08:00

took BTT today..
PASSED!!!
but cant print out e test slip immediately..
coz it takes 30mins to 1 hr to update.
so left w/o printing..
wanted 2 book FTT on e spot oso cant..
so i came hm to book instead..
n guess wat??
e mth of JUNE n JULY r ALL FULLY BOOKED!!
goodness..
so e earliest would be on 30th July at 10.30am..
tt is lyk e NEXT session tt i could find man..
exactly 2 mths after my BTT..
hw funi..
n hw FAR!!!
which means e earliest i can take my practical is in AUGUST!!!
argh..
so nw gota work hard n brush up on practical as much as possible..
to prepare for e practical test right after FTT..

2008-05-29T20:23:00.002+08:00

went for e-trial BTT 2dae..
n i realized e person actuali booked 2 sessions for me 2dae..
so i sat thru both n did all e trial papers..
total der were 6..
n finished each paper at least twice..
wit e 2nd tym getting almost all 100%..
except for i tinik 2 papers wit 98%..
n is not bcoz i duno e ans..
its damn easy can..
its bcoz of e stupid server..
n e touch screen ting..
tt sumtyms caused me to accidentally clicked twice..
which skipped e qns wit a wrong ans..
coz i didnt noe i actually answered e qns..
irritating..

wen i finish e 2nd session..
i asked e so called "invigilator" if all e e-trials were e same papers..
coz e counter staff booked another 2 e-trial sessions 4 me tml..
n he said its all e same papers..
he suggested tt if i did not get 100% i shld come back 4 e e-trial juz b4 my BTT..
to practice..
tink i wil juz go back for e 2nd session tml..
dun wana waste tym go so early n do e papers agn sia..
if its diff den stil can say..
buts its e same..
boring..
its lyk a sure pass de lo..
all r lyk common sense qns..
after tml..
wen i pass my BTT..
can apply for PDL le!!
den can start driving on e road le!!
yea!!
looking 4ward to it!!
tt wld be 1 wishlist dwn for me very soon..
by july or august i hope..

I AM FINALLY DRIVING!!! =>

2008-05-28T23:11:00.002+08:00

had our BS & TRM graduation 2dae..
at Ngee Ann Poly Convention Centre..
the grad robe is reli an ultra big piece of cloth on me..
but stil gota wear it..
once in a lifetime..
e next tym is onli wen grad frm uni..
which is god knows wen 4 me..
lol..
it was boring though..
with speeches in individual graduates gg up to receive e empty scroll..
we were on e stage 4 less den 1 min!!
n we had to sit 4 an hr plus to wait 4 every1 to finish..
but it was counted quite fast le..
e whole ceremony ended in abt an hr half??
i tink so ba..
plus reception n photo taking n returning of grad uniform..
abt 3plus le..
den we decided to go kbox at MS to haf e buffet as well..
so me, evon, jean, cass, cailing, brenna n tiff headed to MS..
we had e rm frm 5pm - 9pm..
wit e buffet starting at 6pm..
all of us were targetting 4 e buffet e moment we enter..
haha..
was counting dwn to 6pm for e food..
lol..
e food was alrite..
i luv e ice-cream.. e soup.. e brownies..
no mix n match salads available though..
lol..
e ice-cream was nice...
but i was practically trembling after finishing it..
had some soup after e ice cream juz to warm myself up..
didnt reli sing much though..
we were more into e food..
haha..
ages since we all last met..
esp tiff, brenna n cailing..
miz e tyms we had in NP..
now tt we were gona go on separate ways..
it will be even more rare 4 us to meet up..
but do hope we can stil gather once in awhile..
to catch up on e good old tyms..

tts all 4 grad day!!!

2008-05-24T21:39:00.003+08:00

had 2 driving practical lessons on 22/5/08 & 23/5/08!!!
i m finally in e driver's seat!!
controlling the steering wheel!!
n driving A CAR!!!!
haha!!
super excited man..
did right & left turns ard e circuit for these 2 pratical lessons...
although i didnt reli turn very well on left turns..
becoz its a sharp bend..
but i still tink i did pretty good..
haha..
stalled e engine a few tyms on 2nd practical lesson..
coz stil cant reli control e clutch, brake, n acccelerator tt well yet..
gota buck up on tt..
n changing gear is FUN!!
haha..
taking BTT on 30th!!!
which is tis coming fri!!!
another 6 more days!!!
n i stil haf not finished studying yet!!
LOL!!!

anw..
i m stil jobless..
haiz..
BUT!!!!
i m gg 4 an interview on MONDAY 26/05/08!!!
shal kip e post n venue a secret 1st..
n reveal onli after i haf been confirmed of e job..
juz a lil info on e job..
it is a shift work job..
tt consist of 3 rotating shifts..
so if i get it..
i can book my driving practical lessons during e non-peak hrs..
which is cheaper!!
haha..

tts all i gona update 2dae..
anco meeting agn tml..
sianz..

2008-05-20T23:05:00.004+08:00

有时候会怀疑
过去的三年多
所付出过的
是否是被需要的
还是我的一相情愿
因为总觉得
有时侯自己
好像并不是很重要
我的存在
好像也不会带来任何的影响

有时候想想
是否应该放弃
但却始终有一种
说不明白的情感
像一条切不断的线一样
把自己捆绑住
却又无法付出所需要的
有时侯
还真的觉得自己很没用
也许因为这样
让我失去那份说话的勇气

也许
我真的应该放弃
也说不定

2008-05-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

i m still jobless..
tink i shld juz take up a part time job 4 e moment..
den at least i haf flexi time to learn driving..
i m sick n tired of sending resumes..
send until i dun even noe wat jobs shld i be actuali applying 4..
haiz..
FT job huntng sux to e core..
but being jobless n incomeless sux even worse!!!
argh..!!
tis is so contradicting i noe..
but i duno wat 2 say le..
haiz...

拿它来当你们的娱乐工具
你们觉得很好玩吗
拿它的表情来当你们的话题
你们觉得很有趣吗
那你们就错了
你们这样的行为
是叫做“幼稚”
你们不能把你们互动的方式
运用在它上
因为它需要的
并不是那样的对待
你们是否曾经站在它的立场
想过它会是带着怎样的心情
来面对你们这些无聊又伤人的对待吗

2008-05-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

well well..
went 4 my very 1st proper job interview 2dae..
n all i can say is..
a paperwork job..
which i dont tink i can survive..
although dey might me able to pay my expected salary..
but i dont tink i wil surive through..
soooooooooooooo....
i haf decided...
if shortlisted --> reject..
if not shortlisted --> doesnt matter...
haha..
i tink i mite juz end up getting a frontline fnb job..
wit a much lower pay..
my mum says tis to me the other day..
"HIGH pay jobs u can never survive long...
but LOW pay jobs u can survive for months.."
haha..
which is true..
LOL..

uploaded e taipei photos into my hm comp le..
but lazy to blog it here..
n oso coz nw my sis is jobless until 26th..
she hogs onto e hm comp lyk e whole day..
so i dont get 2 post either..
lol..

2008-05-09T11:57:00.004+08:00

你们知道...
无助时的自己...
是带着什么感受吗?
那是一种难以形容的悲痛

当你觉得自己最无助...
最需要帮助的时候...
却没人愿意对你伸出援手

当面对着挫折的自己...
想要卸下武装去依靠时...
才发现..
在背后等待着的...
竟是空虚

当发现自己在踏出第一步...
去追求自己最期待的东西...
竟然可能含有错误时...
那种心情...
是难过到了极点
因为我所要做的每一件事..
都是凭着自己的努力..
才能够实现的
那种辛酸...
真的无法形容
最难过的是..
怀疑含有错误的那个人...
看着自己难过的表情...
却没说出我最想听到的 "我帮你"
只懂得在一旁...
对我说着那可能的错误
当时的自己...
真的觉得好无奈...

它应该是那个...
懂得照顾我...
会帮助我的人
但很多时候...
总是上演着相反的剧情

真的好累好累...
好想崩溃的哭一次...
但却不能这么做...
眼泪能落下的时候...
只能是在夜深人静以后...
但哭过以后...
还是要好好的把心情收拾...
因为最终的战役...
还是要自己来面对...
因为我的眼泪...
并不会得到我想要的帮助
所以只好把伤心和难过...
隐藏在心中的黑暗角落...
期待着有一天...
能够随着风...
飘散在空气中...

很多人都说...
眼泪是女生最佳的武器...
但我似乎...
并不拥有它...

2008-05-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

BACK FROM TAIPEI!!!
2 days since i return frm taipei..
kinda weird feeling wen i 1st stepped into my hse..
haha..
n e weather back in SG is horrible..
damn HOT!!!
i prefer taipei weather..
haha..
was sleeping lyk a pig ytd man..
slept frm 3am on e day of return till 12pm ytd..
den went back to slp agn frm 5pm to 8pm..
slept for 12hrs man..
den 2dae oso...
slp n slp..
haha..

met cass 2 get xtra invitation card for graduation..
but wen we reach sch..
dey said NO MORE 4 trm le!!
argh!!!
wasted trip!!
haiz..
so now trying to ask & c if any1 has xtra lo..

i m officially jobless agn..
haha..
gota start flipping newspaper to look 4 a full time job le..
LOL..
will update abt e trip soon..
wen i upload e pics frm my camera..
tt all 4 now!! =>

2008-04-22T16:13:00.002+08:00

omg..
we r leaving SG in less den 24 hrs!!!
cant believe it!!
n i am not finished packing yet!!
LOL!!
we all lyk take it easy sia..
sun den jz started planning wer to go..
ytd den jz went to change money..
2dae den jz went to buy e taiwan adapter plug..
luggage not finished yet..
stil deciding if i shld bring alg 1 more small bag..
n e bloody luggage itself is alrdy 4 kg..
plus my stuff is lyk 10kg alredi la..
we only haf 20kg limit can..
cant imagine wat wil happen wen we depart frm taipei..
hoepfully baggage wont overweight..
but many 过来人 says CONFIRM wil overweight!!!
haha..
some1 suggested me to bring atm..
but i dont tink i will..
1stly is no budget..
2ndly i dun wana start digging my own grave..
coz for tis 8 days of fun..
in xchange might be 8mths of hardwork..
so i cant let go too much on tis trip..
haha..
i tink i m too money conscious..
cant be helped..
its born n taught within me..
LOL..

2008-04-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

有时候
会突然发现某些事
然后开始问自己
自己是否并不重要
自己是否不讨好
自己是否被遗忘
自己是否不曾在记忆中存在

有些事
过了以后
会把之前所建立的感情
因为失去了原因
而渐渐淡去
甚至可能被遗忘了
然后自己开始质疑
那些感情是否真实过
所说的话
所做的一切
究竟是否真心的付出过
在当下的我
认为那些付出
绝对是真心的
但是过去了以后
所失去的
让我开始怀疑那些‘真心’
是否真实过

我很想告诉自己
自己并没有被遗忘
也曾经在记忆中存在过
但是我并没有如此的信心
对于自己
我不曾勇敢过
即时是我最热爱的唱歌
我也不曾对自己满意过
总是在害怕
总是在担心
也许有时候的我
看起来好像很有自信
但背后的我
有一半的我
并不相信自己的能力

是我不够相信自己
还是不够相信别人
但即使我相信别人
我却不相信自己有那样的能耐
让别人相信自己
所以我最后的结论
总是‘靠自己，最实际’

觉得自己活了20年
却一点成就也没有
好失败的感觉
感觉自己好没用
好像什么忙都帮不上
对自己好失望
好失望

2008-04-10T18:28:00.003+08:00

on e bus back hm 2dae..
suddenly realize 1 ting..
all e jobs tt i haf had..
were NEVER e places tt i haf been before..
or some even NEVER heard b4..
haha..
shall look back at all my job experiences..
frm Dec 2004 - Now 2008 ..
1) Panasonic - Data Entry [Dec 04]
2) Homes' Favourite - Cookie Packer [Jan 05]
3) Riverine Ban Seng - Waitress [Mar 05 - May 05]
4) Grass Jelly Shop - Shop Attendent/Server [July 05]
5) Lure Fashion - Sales Assistant [Mar 06 - Dec 06]
6) TCC - Service Crew [Nov 06 - Aug 07]
7) CE - Attachment Trainee [Sep 07 - Feb 08]
8) Bratwurst - Service Crew [Apr 08 - ___]

before i stepped into each of e above company..
i NEVER EVER visited each place before..
i seem to work at places tt most ppl dun reli noe abt..
even wen in TCC..
my outlet was at THE PIER..
n most ppl duno wer exaxtly it is..
even wen i told dem..
haha..
tis is wierd man..
i alwaz work at places tt ppl dun normally noe..
well..
its good oso..
at least u dun see familiar faces ard..
especially wen in F&B line..
u wldnt reli wana see ur frens ard..
coz u mite get distracted by dem..
haha..

juz tot of tis all of a sudden..
so felt lyk blogging abt it..
LOL..

2008-04-06T23:48:00.002+08:00

没工作也烦
有工作也烦
哈哈
觉得自己好矛盾哦
没工作时
烦恼钱的问题
因为没有收入
就不能做很多事情
有工作了
却又烦恼能否适应
要分配时间
才能够同时赚钱
又有一点的自由
哈哈

发现从现在开始
真的必须认真的计划自己的未来
因为现在毕业了
却又还不想上大学的我
就得开始找工作
来养活自己和家人
来达成我好多好多的愿望
比如说学音乐啦
考驾照啦
买钢琴啦
买吉他给爸爸啦
帮爸爸减轻负担啦
也要分配时间帮妈妈啦
唉哟
还真的是要找多钱的工作
又自由时间耶
哈哈
可是好像不太可能哦
还真的觉得头脑好乱
哈哈哈哈

2008-04-01T19:51:00.003+08:00

well well..
2dae 2nd day of work..
not as bad as day 1 though..
coz 2dae longer hrs..
n e ppl was nicer..
n i learnt more tings den juz clearing..
i did sandwiches 2dae..
cut tomatoes..
grilled sausages..
although it was hot..
but i felt more useful than day 1..
met a new girl 2dae..
her name is tiffany i tink..
but dey all call her tiffy..
she is 1 yr younger den me..
studying hospitality in TP..
nice girl i muz say..
she's quite chirpy oso..
n she speaks english most of e tym..
well..
i MITE juz stay for 3 mths ba..
juz to cover expenses for e tym being..
coz i tink i wil be back to gess to help train fac..
competition on 1st june..
so a PT job wld be beta to adjust my tym..

aniwae..
after tis job..
i m gona find a FT job..
but i guess i wil still stick to F&B..
coz is shift work..
haha..
i m lyk STUCK 2 F&B now..
i wan 2 look for a BARISTA job..
means PURELY doing drinks onli..
not service crew..
coz i tink its an accomplishment to prepare e drinks..
esp those tt nids to create layers in dem..
so FUN!!
i LUV it alot!!
haha..
tis passion came frm e tym wen i worked in TCC..
wen i learnt hw 2 do bar..
hw 2 prepare e drinks..
n went through those BUSY tyms..
wer i had 2 rush wit orders..
n go through e pressure of ur colleagues rushing u 4 deir orders..
all abt time management 2 ensure all drinks r out asap..
haha..
though stress..
but kinda lyk tt feeling..
haha..
reli missed those days..
but i dun wan go back TCC..
coz lyk i alredi did tt for 9 mths..
i wana go sumwer different..
but it seems lyk TCC has e MOST variety of drinks 2 make leh..
haha..
contradicting me..

i m e kind of person..
who will remember all e places tt i haf worked b4..
i actuali wil miss all e ppl..
but i wil not say it out..
no matter hw i dislike some ppl..
or no matter how i do not actuali speak much to some of e ppl..
coz i felt tt it will not be me if i say it out..
haha..
memories of those past jobs wil stil linger ard in my head..
all e fun n laughter..
all e tears n sadness..
all e anger n frustration..
dey were all memories tt will never be forget..
though i probably will look lyk i do not care after i leave..
haha..

okie dokie..
shall stop here..
duno y i start toking abt past jobs oso..
lol..
job fever..

MONEY drives ppl CRAZY!!!

2008-03-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

well well..
1st day of work..
everyting was alrite..
juz tt i dun lyk 1 of ppl der..
e rest r stil ok..
i onli did drinks n sending of orders n clearing..
den did closing top ups..
tts abt it..
but it was quite busy actuali..
coz e ppl were non stop..

on e overall..
i wld onli rate e jo as 60% satisfactory..
y leh?
coz its not much of a table service..
customers haf 2 get deir own cutleries n sauces..
instead of us doing settings..
den e place is DAMN small n DIRTY 4 goodness sake..
i tot counter service wld be easier..
it is indeed..
but i guess i m more used to table service style..
lyk TCC..
BUT!!!
i wil stay on to tis job for MIN n MAX 3 mths..
coz i dun tink tis is wat i wan..
i wld prefer more of cafe style..
but instead of PT..
i wil look for FT instead after tis job..
i wld look for more of Barista job..
coz i lyk e idea of making drinks..
its FUN!!
haha..

alrite..
juz wana say sth abt 1st day of work..

2008-03-27T15:39:00.002+08:00

yay!!
the person msged me tis morning!!
i m starting work TODAY!!!
6pm - 10pm
$6.50/hr..
so i earned $26 today!!
haha..
i m GLAD tt i REJECTED the $5/hr job..
i guess its worth the wait..
coz i got e BETA paid job..
LOL..

juz wana share my excitement here..
nth else le..
haha..

2008-03-27T00:09:00.003+08:00

well well..
its been almost a mth since end of attachment..
n i m still jobless..
went 4 an interview ytd..
n e person say he will call me by 2dae..
or rather ytd..
to let me noe wen i can start work..
he sounded so promising to hire me..
but..
i still have not heard from him..
haiz..
its $6.50/hr leh..
mebe i shld call e person tml..
nono..
shld be later in e morning..
coz its past 12am already..

haf been kiping myself at home for almost e past 1 wk..
e reason is to refrain myself frm gg out..
so tt i wont spend money..
coz nid to sve up for TAIWAN TRIP!!!
its in 28 days!!!
haha..
days at hm r BORED... BORED... SUPER BORED!!!
cant imagine it..
born to be workaholic..
cant stop working..
cant stay at hm..
will start to rot..
n most importantly..
wil EAT!!
haf been refraining myself frm eating too..
eating TOO much these days..
tsk tsk tsk...
深深的罪恶感。。。
e way to refrain myself frm eating..
is to do housework..
haf been washing clothes..
folding clothes..
ironing clothes..
sweeping e hse..
mopping e floor..
changing of bedsheets..
tidying up e hse..
etc.. etc.. etc..

ok..
shall update till here..
coz i duno wat else to update le..
life has been BORING!!!

2008-03-16T00:11:00.003+08:00

jobless for 2 weeks..
n i still haven got myself job..
initially gotten a $5/hr job..
but i juz felt it was too little..
so i rejected it in e end..
looking out for jobs tt is paying at least $6/hr..
haiz..
so difficult..

aniwae..
went to check out the courses at LWS ytd wit evon..
lyk FINALLY after so many pushing backs..
n was totali SHOCKED with the course fee for the FT course..
i seriously dun tink i can afford it..
shld be taking up PT course instead..
which means i shld find a FT job soon..
but i cant yet coz i already planned to go taiwan frm 23rd-30th apr..
if i pick up a FT job now..
i wldnt be able to go...
but i cant do w/o a job now too..
so here's my plan..
-> take up a PT job for at least 5-6mths..
-> den decide wat FT job i reli wan to get..
-> den take up PT music course
-> den go take up driving lessons

oh btw..
i was alwaz tinking of taking up vocal lessons actuali..
but after toking to the guy ytd..
composing sounds lyk a fun ting too..
u can learn hw to play e keyboard..
n at the same time compose ur on songs..
which sounds damn cool..
so i mite be taking composing course instead of vocals in the end..
cant wait..

but money is the main issue to all my plans..
which is y i nid a job real soon!!!
my account is lyk DEPLETING HORRENDOUSLY!!!
cant imainge e descending rate of e figures..
its killing my heart..
wen e thought of NO MORE attachment income at e end of e mth..
reli dead man..

2008-02-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

after a long 26 weeks race..
it is finally coming to an end..
now i see the light..
shining from the destination point..
telling me i m reaching soon..
but i cant imagine..
life w/o sch..
life w/o work..
for at least the next 1 - 2 weeks..
wat will i be doing?
i haven reli planned..
reli wanted to just stay home n rest..
but tts lyk abit too boring..
but i reli duno wat to do..
dun feel lyk running abt for so much yet..
after a long 6 mths run..
but stopping to rest is lyk not my style sia..
haiz..
sianz..

2008-02-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

终于结束了
连续十五天的工作
好累好累
却还得继续下去
没得休息
不过没关系
还剩下五天而已

还记得那天
突然崩溃的哭了
其实真的不知道为了什么哭
但就是忍不住眼泪
好想哭出来

2008-02-23T21:58:00.003+08:00

living in the shadow of others..
making decisions tt ensures deir hapiness..
at e same tym ensuring my unhapiness..
ensuring dey r doing wat dey lyk & not wat dey dun lyk..
ensuring tt i m doing wat i dun lyk & not wat i lyk..
ensuring tt my decisions r alwaz wat others wanted..
ensuring tt my decisions r not wat i wanted..
ensuring tt i m helping every1 hu nids help..
ensuring tt i m alwaz the clever 1 to solve the problem..
wen i m juz a bloody fucking idiot who cant say duno wen i reli duno..
n i cant be angry n say words tt spite ppl..
i MUZ alwaz be calm n cool..
i MUZ NEVER be angry wit wat others say..
i MUZ accept all nonsense n crap..
i MUZ accept all jokes n CANT be angry over it..
coz if i do..
i wil get response lyk "dun angry la..! joking onli wat.. so easy angry ar"
but has any1 even rmb the tyms wen i accepted ALL the jokes n were NOT angry??
the answer is NO..
if u tink i m juz being childish n wilful to write all these here...
i m fine wit it..
its my life aniwae..
nobody ever cares whether i m hapi or not..
y bother abt tis post aniwae??
i m juz trying to 发泄 over here..
ignore it if u tink i m being ridiculous..
it doesnt matter..
coz it has NEVER been mattered..

nothing will change even if i complains tis to ANY1..
coz EVERY1 will juz say dey r the SAME too!!
so wat can i do??
i wil juz haf to say "ya lo.. u all more ke lian.."
den wat??
everyting is back to square 1...
i m juz tis NOBODY...
who does not matter even if i suddenly die on the roadside..
or i get killed in any accident..
coz even wen i m alive..
nobody cares alredi..
so it wont make a difference if i were to be dead..
AGREE??

if any1 of u hate me..
juz tell me straight in my face..
i will be more than hapi to accept..
i tink so much..
end up wat i get..
is some unhapi faces wen reject any request for help for lyk ONCE???
the most difficult task..
is to ask for help frm ppl CLOSEST to u..
believe it or not..
juz try it out n u will get the immediate result..

2008-02-17T17:16:00.002+08:00

很多时候
我们都会觉得
身边的某些人
让自己非常讨厌
觉得他的所作所为
令人反感
令人感到恶心
自己并不是很想和他说话

但人往往都不照镜子
好好的看看自己
好好的想想
自己是否也令人讨厌
自己的所做所为
是否令人反感
令人感到恶心

其实那些讨厌和反感
也许是因为
彼此的成长环境并非一样
很多事情
是很难能够做比较
因为彼此的性格都不一样
要找到彼此的平衡点
需要的是宽容和谅解
包容和宽恕
但那却是我们很多人
都无法做到的一些事
包括自己在内

所谓了解和懂得是一件事
真正能够这样做的
又是另一回事了

快要结束的一些事
不知道是快乐还是会有点舍不得
应该是快乐的
但应该会带着一点不习惯吧
哈哈
我也不晓得
就等待着那天的来领吧

2008-02-16T08:14:00.002+08:00

超级星光大道 in spore..
i so wanted to go for it..
BUT!!
i m stil under attachments..
n during e peak period..
so..
decided to 放弃..

i noe i m being detested..
i juz knew it..

2008-02-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

wat happens wen a rubberband gets overstretched..?
let me tell u...
it SNAPS..
if u dun get wat i mean..
it means u r not on the same frequency wit me..

28 minus 9....

2008-02-04T03:52:00.000+08:00

1 text spoils all e hapi mood..
how irritating..

2008-01-31T16:07:00.000+08:00

every1 is endig in 1 more day..
n we haf 30 freaking more days..
wat do u call tt??
e world is round n never fair..
wat can i say..
we made e choice..

recent change of attitude..
weird n uneasy..
duno hw 2 describe..
e sudden nice treatment..
feels reli weird..

2008-01-31T15:28:00.000+08:00

sick & tired..
felt lyk juz letting my hands off all these shit..
juz tell me wat u all wan n stop asking me to decide..
i rather be left wit no choice..
coz even wen der is a choice..
i dun get wat i wan..
wat for let me decide den?

忍耐也是有极限的。。。

2008-01-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

一直被依赖着
那是一种信任吗？
还是退缩的表现。。
日子久了
什么也都习惯了
习惯了被依赖
习惯了要做抉择
习惯了前锋的位置
习惯了踏出第一步
习惯了所有的一切
必须做大家最想要的决定
必须懂得大家最想要什么
必须懂得阅读大家心里的想法
而做出让大家最满意的结局
已渐渐不懂得
要怎么像个普通的小女生
去依赖着
因为除了相信自己
也还是自己

时间嘀嗒嘀嗒的走着
日子一天一天的过着
不知不觉已踏入了人生二十岁的道路上
却一点成就也没有
好失望，好难过
得不到支持的决定
又能对谁倾诉

所谓“我不入地狱，谁入地狱”
真可以用在我人生的道路上
有时候真的很厌倦站在前锋
为所有人低档风险
去寻求大家最想要的答案
如果你想得到你要的答案
就自己去争取
我并不是神仙
不能帮所有人完成心愿
我并不是那么的聪明
别把我当神童一样的一直问我
有时候我真的真的不知道
不要一直把你们想要的
都寄托在我的身上
那时一件很累的事
有人想做我的前锋吗？
我想应该没有吧。。。
这就是我的人生。。。

2008-01-09T11:56:00.000+08:00

为什么我总是要做那个
为别人着想的人
我一直都在这么做
但是没人知道
因为他们把这样的我
当成了理所当然的我
每一次每一次每一次
当我真正决定为自己想的时候
决定为自己想要的而做决定的时候
他们就会说“你不为自己想也得为别人想啊”
又有谁知道
这句话对我的伤害又多大

隐藏在心里的话
有好多好多都无法说出口
我坚持的事情
总是遭到别人的打击
而不是鼓励的声音
真的好难过

当我告诉别人
我毕业后的计划
是要去学音乐
鼓励的回应
可以说是零
他们的反应都是
“真的吗？”
“为什么呢？”
“怎么会有这种兴趣呢？”
“你知道这条路很难走吗？”
“你一定要能够忍受辛苦啊”

竟然没有一个人说
“啊，很好啊。”
“加油哦！”
“你一定会成功的！”
“继续努力”
之类的话语
我从来都没有得到过
就连我的父母也一样
你知道那是多么伤心的事吗

我还没开始打仗
就已经先被他们的字眼给打败了
因为我都还没踏出那扇门
他们就已经将门给锁上了

所以我以后的路
可以说是得一个人
带着超强的意志力
要够坚持
才能够走下去
因为我得不到鼓励
所以只好自己鼓励自己
要更加更加更加的相信自己

真的。。

如果你们觉得我是在装可怜
还是我在装伤感
随便你们
这些都是我真正的想法
是说不出口的内心话
因为用写的
会比说的容易
而且也不需要找对象来说
因为我相信
每个人都会有这种想法
所以一定听不进别人这样的想法
你们同意吗？
你们自己慢慢的思考吧。。
如果觉得我说的是废话
大可不必读
但如果觉得有道理的话
那我们是否应该
看看周围的人
了解他们的行动
了解他们的言语
背后所存在的原因
会是什么呢？
我们能用心去感受吗？
我们能够了解背后真正的原因吗？

2008-01-07T12:39:00.000+08:00

当我鼓起勇气
决定为自己而自私一次
总是会遭到别人的一些言语
难道我错了吗？
为自己而自私一次
有错吗？
我不懂
还是我自己想太多了
也许他们只是在开玩笑
并没有恶意
嗨。。。
总觉得人好难做
不可能让每个人喜欢自己
也不可能讨好每一个人
有时候还真的蛮讨厌自己的
讨厌自己的胆怯
讨厌自己的害怕
讨厌自己的“用心感受”原则
我一直认为
每个人都可以用心去体会每一件事
去了解和分析每一件事情背后的原因
我真的这么认为
但很可惜
我身边的人
并不是每一个人都是这样
所以我告诉自己
没有人是完美的
我要更加包容和体谅
我要学习接受和谅解
我要学习信任他人
这样的我
会比较好过吗？
我还不清楚
也许会吧。。

2008-01-03T14:44:00.000+08:00

新的一年
第一天
就花了两百多块
嗨......
真惨
剩下的这个月
就准备吃草了
因为还有电话费还没付
还有妈妈的钱还没给
还有给奶奶的钱还没给
嗨......
好多烦恼啊
都是在烦钱的事
我是不是在想太多呢?
但我却不能不想
因为我得靠自己
靠自己成功
所以要加倍加倍的努力
要做别人做不到的事
我要更加更加的独立
因为我不能够依赖
所以必需让自己更坚强

2008-01-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

爬不出的自卑
倒不下的墙围
打不开的心结
只剩下冷漠画面

挥不去的胆怯
抓不紧的勇气
来不及去面对
机会已随风而去

不知道该怎么写了...
这段...
就先这样结束吧...

2008-01-01T06:12:00.000+08:00

二零零八年
又到了新的一年
新的开始
新的希望
今年为自己设下了一个目标
要学会三样东西
那就是相信相信还有相信
因为相信并不是它的专长
对于相信别人
或相信自己
都是一样的
不能够给予100%无怀疑的心情
围绕着的谎言和不认真
把真正的事实给掩埋了
让信任的勇气也掩盖了
而相信自己
更是难上加难

2007-12-29T14:53:00.000+08:00

最近都没什么好发表的事情发生
好无聊
终于踏入第十七个星期的尾声
好快好快
还记得刚踏进那间办公室的第一天
陌生的感觉
无法用言语来形容
话也从不多说
经过这段时间
认识了好多人
也更清楚了解每个人的性格与工作方式
对什么人该说什么话
也是一种该学习的技巧
在过九个星期就结束了
期待却也感到彷徨
因为对未来的路
并没有很大的把握
因为鼓励的字眼
好像还没到达我这边

2007-12-19T02:03:00.000+08:00

又到了星期三..
又过了半个星期..
很快下个星期就要来临..
很快新的一年就要到来..
时间真的过的好快..
其他人还剩下六个半星期就完成了..
我们还剩下十个半星期才完成..
听起来似乎好像很长..
但其实那应该很短吧..
毕竟我们已经在这里..
也过了十五个半星期..
那是接近四个月的时间..
有种不可思议的感觉..

期待着再度相聚的那天..
不晓得大家有了什么样的改变..
真的很期待那天的到来..

2007-12-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

今天把它送去医院
给医生做检查
医生说
必需住院至少四五天
病才能恢复
但已不可能
恢复得跟之前一样健康
住院费
还不确定
但医生说
至少要两到三百块
嗨..
只能沉默以对
因为泪水已苦干了

2007-12-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

十二天的生命...
外壳就受损...
眼泪顿时落下...
心痛不宜...
无言以对...
说不出口的心酸...
心里有种..
被数万只箭刺中...
顿时破碎的玻璃...
洒落满地..

心痛 x 无极限...

2007-12-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

yay!!
its thursday!!
another wk ending soon!!
soooooo hapi!!!
haha..
juz felt bored..
so decided 2 do tis post..
lol..

2007-12-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

juz finish watching 斗牛，要不要 epi 4..
on 土豆网..
omg..
it is damn damn nice..
hebe v cute..
贺军翔 very 帅！
李威 very 酷！
haha..
these r wat u call 幻想...

偶像剧的爱情故事
刺激
惊险
不可思议
给予了希望和幻想
带你脱离真实
进入梦幻
美化你的渴望和想象
但这一切的一切
却和现实生活中
是完全相反的
轰轰烈烈的爱情故事
不可能会在现实生活中发生
而所有的一切
都可能拥有着真假两面
让你分不清
什么是真什么是假
我不敢去相信爱情
因为不想给予自己
任何一个软弱的理由
因为要在这个环境里生存
我不能够变得软弱
绝对不可以

2007-12-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

finally over!!
yesh yesh!!
juz ended AZPN ytd!!
tts e end 4 yr 2007!!
soooooooooooo hapi!!
shal await 2008..
haha..
ANCO agn?
another zone games day?
or probably zpn?
haha..
beta nt go tink so much..
lol..

lets c..
exactly 3 more mths 4 us..
n exactly 2 more mths 4 e rest..
cant wait..
haha..
if u noe wati m toking abt..
pros n cons 2 it..
lets accept fate sumtyms..
n nt be too 倔强..
we shal do our best 4 e remaining days..
n leave wit pride n smiles on our faces..
haha..
sum ppl shal n muz be 4gotten..
while sum shal n will n muz NOT be 4gotten..
although sumtyms is nt up 2 me 2 decide..

awaits e arrival of xx/xx/xxxx.......

2007-12-03T11:17:00.000+08:00

well well..
got myself a new lappy ytd..
hapi hapi!!
actuali wanted a fujitsu..
but i ended up wit a sony vaio instead!!
althought e specs were slightly lower den fujitsu's..
n e screeen is wider..
n e price is steeper..
but it looks MUCH MUCH NICER!!!
haha..
so i decided 2 get sony vaio instead..
dadi paid by credit 1st..
by installment..
gona pay him back month by month..
although alwaz mite end up nt paying sumtyms..
haha..

2007-12-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

原来最傻最笨最愚蠢的人
就在此
自以为很懂得
自以为把自己保护的很好
自以为不会受伤难过
但也不过如此
现在才发现
原来它也只不过是一个
自以为的人
有些事情
它以为它帮了忙
其实反而帮倒忙
但不帮忙
却显得在偷懒
它不能接受这样的自己
一些默认的事实
却必需通过他人才真正晓得
那应该是不够信任
而不是默契十足
当自愿被视为理所当然
有人晓得它是什么感受
它的原则是
每一个工作
都必需要有个人去完成
如果每个人都说那不是它的工作范围
而把那个任务放在一边不去做
那大家就等着一起被骂好了
但它却讨厌被骂的感觉
讨厌没把任务完成的感觉
看不过就这样把任务放在一边不管
要装看到也当作没看到
它做不到
它搞不懂
真的真的搞不懂
它究竟是个冷漠无情的人
还是活泼开朗的人
它到底对自己的认识有多深
它是否是在正确的表达自己的情绪
它真的如此的坚强吗
它真的能够一个人完成所有的事吗
它真的没关系吗
它真的不懂得

2007-11-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

interim done!!
in 1 day..
i feel so proud of myself..
tis wk gona be super x 10 busy..
coz frm tml onwards is a whole stretch of events..
all e way til fri..
or mebe even sat..
haf prepared my armour..
ready 4 the battle..
HAHAHAHAHA!!!

ok..
enuf of tt lameness..
3 more months..
so hapi..
half of it gone..
half more 2 go..
yay!!
sounds so much lyk i wana end it asap..
its true!!
BUT!!
i wil definitely miz tt grp of ppl..
who brought joy to our work..
with all e lame jokes n everything..
it will be appreciated..
but life has 2 go on..
tis is nt wer i wan 2 be..
i muz move on towards my goal..
2 achieve wat 2 reli wan..

to TR21 gals..
awaits e day wer we all shal meet up again!!

2007-11-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

总是怀疑
你给的温柔
是否真实
我不敢去证实

因为害怕
受伤的滋味
所以撤退
我不敢去面对

hmm.. wat do u tink of e words above..
emo enuf..?
suppose 2 be lyrics..
but i duno hw 2 carry on!!
argh..
i m alwaz stuck halfway..
sian diao..
duno wat words 2 use..
duno hw 2 form proper sentences tt has meaning..
hate it wen i m stuck..
wer 2 get 灵感 sia..
i alwaz based on my perception of tinking..
alwaz tink alot..
but wen comes 2 piecing dem 2gether into lyrics..
it juz sounded weird..
haiz..
wen cn i write 1 proper set of lyrics..??
n tt i m satisfied wit it..
WHEN.............................................................................

2007-11-09T02:33:00.001+08:00

3 off days..
hw cool is tt!!??
yay!!
tis wk is e least events wk i guess..
no OC n esp events during e wkend..
so boss decided 2 gif us 3 days off!!
*claps! claps!*
decided 2 meet cass n jean out 4 dinner tml @ TCC TP!!
or rather TODAY..
haha..
cass even change shift so to meet us!!
luv ya girl!!
long tym since e 4 of us meet up tog!!
so hapi!!

well..
attachment is getting better i muz say..
at least nw we noe wen haf 2 attend events..
wen cn dun nid wear full covered shoes..
n we get 2 noe e ppl much much beta too..
tym past quite fast actuali..
its alredi gg on to e 10th wk soon..
n we r left wit 16 more wks..
it does nt seem tt far til end of feb as b4..
hopefully these remaining wks wil be juz as gd as tis wk..
haha..
ok..
nt quite possible..

oh!
aniwae..
i went 2 watch chitty chitty bang bang!!
haha..
i didnt buy e tix..
it was a lg story 2 getting tis tix..
so we shal skip tt..
seriously..
i didnt noe wat was chitty all abt..
even my mum noes!!
but i duno..
haha..
she even noes e song..
n i onli noe after i watched it..
hw funi is tt..
lol..
e show was nt bad..
effects.. stage.. props.. casts..
were all v nice n good..
juz tt sumtyms i dun catch deir words..
coz dey speak too fast..
n wit a slang..
n guess hu was at e show as well??
DARREN!!!
saw him twice on tt day!!
1st was on e way dwn 2 get sth..
past by e foyer..
n saw some1 doing shooting..
so i kinda stared at dem..
n saw tt it was DARREN!!
hw lucky!!
but of coz..
he duno me la..
haha..
2nd was wen i entered e theatre itself..
realized tt he was der 2 watch e show too!!
double lucky!!
den in e theatre i saw other stars too..
Adrian Pang, Zoe Tay n family.. Kym Ng...
m i having luck or wat..
it was on 06th November 2007, Tuesday 4 ya info..
its my lucky day!!
haha..
but after e show had 2 work til 1plus am 4 e post show 4 chitty..
at ADESP..
quite tired actuali..
but i guessed it was all worth it..
haha..

wow..
longest post i guess..
shal stop here..
LOL!

2007-11-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

my blog is rotting..
long long tym since i last posted..
at least 2 wks?
i suppose so..
nth much 2 post..
duno wat 2 post..

2 mths of attachment haf past..
tym reli flies..
left wit 4 mths..
suddenly i didnt seemed tt far away..
looking 4ward 2 tt day..
wer my freedom finally comes..
kinda planned wat i wan 2 do after grad le..
juz tt money mite b e main prob..
which i haf 2 put in more brain juice 2 tink of it..
well..
but i stil look 4ward 2 tt day..
if u were 2 ask if i were 2 stay on in my current co.?
most likely not..
unless probably e money??
hmm..
unless i m SERIOUSLY short of money..
den MAYBE i mite..
but i hope not..
haha..

tried 2 write song lyrics..
n post dem here..
but den..
alwaz tink is nt gd enuf..
no music thou..
coz duno hw 2 compose..
haha..
1 day..
probably my post wil be used 4 posting lyrics?
haha..
hope so..

2007-10-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

有时候
真的不知道是为了什么
只觉得那是原则

究竟原则
是坚持还是固执
重要吗?

她从来都不曾重要过
独自作战也没关系
跌到了也没关系
因为根本都不会有人在乎
她也不再去想了
因为她已经学会了习惯
习惯就成了自然
也自然的潜入了她的个性
建造了一道防卫之墙
抵挡所有的入侵
不管是好还是坏
她那道被封锁的门
已不知道还能为谁而开

2007-10-14T02:56:00.000+08:00

efficiency is gd..
but TOO efficient is not gd..
being too efficient sumtyms..
is getting urself into trouble..
tings r alwaz learnt the HARD way..

2007-10-12T21:52:00.000+08:00

a week since i last posted..
getting lazier n lazier 2 post..
coz seriously duno wat 2 post..
coz it seems 2 be e same every wk..
e same kind of tensedness..
e same kind of uncertainty..
duno wat else i cn say..

e onli ting tt got beta nw..
was tt we start 2 get 2 noe e restaurant staff n chefs beta..
we noe hu dey r..
dey noe hu we r..
so its much beta in communicating wit dem nw..

oh well..
guess wil jz stop here..
duno wat else 2 post le..
haha..

2007-10-05T13:03:00.000+08:00

人世间的奇妙
让人摸不着

有时候

越不想发生的事

偏偏就会发生

越是认为不可能的

却变得越有可能

刚开始的玩笑

现在已不再是玩笑

究竟是渐渐的滋长

还是一开始的事实

真真假假

又有谁知

2007-10-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

hmm..
onli 3 days frm my last post..
actuali haf nth 2 post abt..
but juz felt lyk posting a post..
haha..

living in unpredictions everyday..
do u call tt surprises?
dun tink so..
i actuali kinda lyk surprises..
coz u duno wats install 4 u..
n u wil start guessing..
which is kinda fun sumtyms..
getting surprises once in a while is good..
lyk on special days..
which makes it memorable..
but wen it is lyk everyday..
surprises turn into unpredictions..
leading 2 fear..
making u tensed..
these feelings..
seriously wears u dwn mentally..
physically u arent tired..
but e mental stress is enuf 2 kill u each day..

alwaz looking 4ward 2 tt 1 off day a wk..
but yet tt is e day tt passed e FASTEST..
argh..
as i haf said in my previous post b4..
"hapi moments alwaz past fast" (its in chinese in my previous post)
n i hate tt..
but wat cn i do..
except 4 counting dwn..
21 n a half more wks..
or probably i shld haf a short term goal..
other den awaiting e day tt ends..
but 2 await e day wen it is less den 20 wks left..
it is more practical tt way rite??
so is 1 n a half more wks to 20wks left..
counting.. counting.. n counting..

miz all e ppl tt i cant meet up wit..
my dearest frens in NP..
jean n cass..
my SJAB darlings..
jm..
jh..
zs..
kh..
bett..
wt..
jas..
sh..

awaiting.. awaiting.. awaiting...

2007-09-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

4 wks haf past..
counting dwn 22 more wks..
i duno wat 2 say abt attachment le..
nth much 2 comment actuali..
jz tt i prefer gg 2 do events..
rather den getting stuck at office..
i rather be e 1 getting paid as a PT staff..
doing setups n tearing dwn..
at least i find myself more useful..

22 more wks 2 go..
i duno if tis is fast ant..
i onli awaits e day 2 grad..
so tt i cn do wat i wan..
n go learn wat i wan..

awaiting....

2007-09-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

快乐的时光
总是短暂
一眨眼又到了
星期天的晚上

收拾好心情
准备就绪
面对礼拜一
奋战的情绪

*edit*
went 2 watch UNDERDOG wit cass n von 2dae..
a pity jean cldnt come alg..
so 3 of us decided 2 watch at Cathay..
walked ard PS b4 e show starts at 6pm..
end up me n cass each bought a pair of slip ons..
haha..
den we bought snacks frm carrefour 4 e movie lata..
we bought:
1) Pringles Potato Chips (Spicy BBQ)
but NOT spicy AT ALL :(
2) Prawn Crackers
3) Nacho Cheez!!

we were juz in tym 4 e movie..
we missed almost e whole part of e song..
haha..
happily munching on e chips while watching..
had a good laugh thruout e movie..

den we headed 2 PS kopitiam 4 some hot soup..
coz Cathay was soooooo cold..
chatted 4 awhile..
which i tink it was nearly 30mins..
b4 we decided 2 leave..

missed those days we had..
in sch..
after sch..
outside sch..
but nw..
we cn onli tk a step at e tym..
wondering wen's e nxt tym we wil get 2 meet..

TK CR my frens!! =>

2007-09-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

2dae gona tok abt IT..
n onli 1 person wil noe hu tis IT is..

sumtyms find IT abit childish..
doing tings tt we tink IT wldnt do..
IT luvs 2 brag oso..
toks as if IT noes alot of ppl..
n noes alot of tings..
probably IT reli does..
but sumtyms it is a lil too much..

but den agn..
probably IT is juz trying 2 make us fit in..
or probably IT is trying 2 fit in 2 us..
but mebe in a nt so correct way..
coz we r nt exactly e way IT tinks we r..
n its nt as if we noe IT v well..
so sumtyms we feel kinda weird wen IT is too frenly..
but wen IT is too fierce..
tts abit scary too..
IT is an unpredictable person..

2 e onli person hu noes IT..
if u eva reads tis..
pls do not tag using ur name..
i wil let u noe y..
hahahaha..

haf a good day every1!!!

2007-09-15T19:20:00.000+08:00

2 wks haf past..
everything was OK..
hws every1 @ attachment?
hope all r doing juz as fine.. =>
stepping into e 3rd wk soon..
n we haf 2 submit our 1st report in another 2 wks tym..
1st October..
hw fast?? or hw slow is tt?
it depends on individual i guess..
results was out ytd..
no impatient feelings..
no excitement @ all..
coz it was all overwhelmed wit mixed feelings..
4 e past 2 wks..
so login 2 chk results ytd morning..
n was amazed by 1 of e modules..
n tt was IB..
i gt an A..
haha..
i guess Mr. Wong is a super nice tutor..
coz i didnt reli study hard 4 e final paper..
overall was alright..
juz as usual..
2 those hu r interested..
my results r as follow:

GPA: 3.2500
HOM: B+
IP: B
IB: A
RMTR: C+
SQTR B+
WISP: B+
AA: C+

was quite upset tt i didnt get at least a B 4 RMTR..
coz der were calculations..
n yet i didnt do as well as those written paper..
kinda dissappointed in tt grade..
but oh well..
at least i passed..
haha..
my 2nd highest GPA..
highest GPA was last sem..
2 those hu r interested agn..
my 5 sems GPAs r as follow:

Yr 1 Sem 1: 3.1250
Yr 1 Sem 2: 2.7727
Yr 2 Sem 1: 3.0000
Yr 2 Sem 2: 3.2917
Yr 3 Sem 1: 3.2500

anw.. tis wk attachment was 2 learn 2 handle a cafeteria..
it was at TyreExpo..
we had tis cafeteria 2 run...
selling food & drinks..
n providing booth service 2 tis foreign co..
dun tink its appropiate 2 say e name of e co..
so we shal leave tt out..
it was fine..
juz tt e booth svc was probably a lil 2 easy..
cafeteria was fun..
its more counter svc..
guests orders frm u at e counter..
n collects his food n drinks order b4 leaving..
n we juz clear up wen dey leave e tables..
i lyk tt kind of job..
haha..

so tt was all 4 e 2nd wk of attachment..
tis wkend gota read thru a whole list of EOs..
shal learn sth new nxt wk i guess..
lets wish tt nxt wk wil b a fun wk..
=>

不被允许软弱
不被允许放松
不被允许不懂
不被允许哭泣
究竟是我自己设下的规矩
还是那本来就已经是设好的规矩

2007-09-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

神经紧崩
压力
害怕
不知所措
恐惧
头脑混乱
心痛

后悔?
的确有一点
但我只能说
这是我自己做的选择
既然选择了
就应该奋斗到底

我应该要相信自己
应该要更有自信心
应该更乐观
应该更坚强

隐藏着的寂寞
又有谁懂
看不见的恐惧
又有谁知
只能对自己说
加油吧

2007-09-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

well well..
had 2 off days..
ytd went far east n bought 2 more new tops..
long sleeve shirt..
n a pair of new heels..
heartache..
another $150+ gone!!!
haiz..
reli spending alot..
heart seriously bleeding profusely..
OUCH......
help me...
i m drowning in my blood..
cn u see it???

2007-09-07T23:34:00.000+08:00

5 days haf past..
attended 3 events in total..
realized tt catering is nt easy..
doing an event is nt easy..
many coordination between depts..
many details 2 look into..

n i m reli amazed by e PT banquet staff..
although most of dem r younger den us..
by 1 yr..
but coz dey haf been working der 4 so lg..
dey noe so much more den us..
e amt of tings tt dey noe hw 2 do..
i m so amazed by dem..
n i finali understand y banquet cn earn so much..
coz 1 event tks up at least 6-7hrs..
n we see almost e same few ppl 4 e past 3 events..
1stly due 2 sch hols nw..
which is y dey cn commit..
n which is y i nw understand..
hw cum dey cn earn lyk $100+ in juz 2 events..
i shld haf done banqueting in e past..
haha..

tis wk i wil haf 2 off days..
tml n sun..
so nxt wk dun tink i wil haf off le..
gota cover back..
oh well..
currently everything is still manageable..
hope nxt wk gona be a gd wk too!!
shal onli blog once per wk abt attachment..
look out 4 attachment updates nxt wk!! ;->

2007-09-04T23:38:00.000+08:00

had 2 blog abt tis b4 12midnite 2dae..
WHY??
coz at e VERY SAME DAY..
4th SEPTEMBER...
BUT a yr ago..
sumting BIG happened in tengz life..

RECALLING BACK.....................
after living on earth 4 nearly 18yrs..
tengz went ice-skating..
fell beautifully..
landing wit her left palm flat on e ice..
wer she alwaz wore her watch..
stood up n felt a sense of dizziness..
n e view b4 her appeared almost white 4 a moment..
took out her left glove n found tt it was purplish blue..
felt tis great pain in her left wrist..
which turned out 2 be a CRACK in the wristbone..
tengz felt so dwn 4 tt moment..
blaming herself 4 being so stupid..
y did she let herself get injured..
n had 2 live wit a cast 4 6 whole weeks..
it was sumting she nv tot it wil happen in her live..
she wil alwaz rmb e tym wer she had 2 live wit a cast..

RETURNING BACK..............................
tym flies..
n 1 yr has past..
2dae..
tengz is nt down animore..
she decided 2 rmb tis day 4eva..
n 2dae..
wld b e 1st anniversary of her cracked wristbone..
4th SEPTEMBER...
wil be another IMPT day in tengz life..
she wil NEVER 4GET tis day..

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY 2 tengz cracked wristbone!!!

2007-08-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

did last min shopping 2dae..
bought blazer...
covered heels..
n handbag..
yay yay..
at least cn handle for 1st wk of work ba..
bought another top..
but no stock..
so cn onli collect tml..
den saw another top @ iora..
oso gt no stock at wisma..
so asked dem 2 transfer 2 e outlet at tbp...
so shld be collecting tml oso..

so my current chklist 4 work..
--> 4 new tops..
--> 1 black pants..
--> 1 black skirt..
--> 1 pair of heels..
--> 1 handbag..

yupyup..
so currently tts it 4 nw..
wil nid 2 stock up wen got my 1st pay..
spent alot 2dae le..
cn feel my heart bleeding nw..
OUCH...

2007-08-31T00:51:00.000+08:00

walkathon finally over!!
yes!!
had been counting money 4 e past 2-3days..
wil nv touch money agn..
hate it wen it does not tally..

attended zone meeting 2dae..
doesnt seem as bad as e 1st tym wen i attended..
although i cant rmb wen..
probably coz tt tym stil new..
nw nt v old thou..
but ok la..
dun feel tt odd..
n probably coz gt jh oso..
at least gt sum1 i noe..
haha..
mebe attending zone meeting is nt a bad ting afterall..
lol..

2007-08-29T17:09:00.000+08:00

幻想篇

文字
是没有感情的东西
只会冷冷的望着你
带给你迷惑和怀疑

言语
是为文字加上音符
或许能够牵动人心
揭开心中的某些迷

行动
是无言的表达
可以比言语更动听
让你被受感动
或是比文字更冷淡
让你更加迷惑

文字
是绝对无法感动一个人
言语
也不一定能够牵动人心
行动
也不见得会让人了解

但如果
能用行动
来让人了解
言语中
所用的文字
想要表达的意思
也许
就会能够真正的牵动人心
让人被受感动

但是如此的感动
是绝对不可能
会在现实生活中发生
因为幻想和现实
永远都是相反的

2007-08-29T02:30:00.002+08:00

juz finish calculating walkathon $$$..
haiz..
gt shortage lo..
n tt jh stil cn say every yr SURE gt xtra..
tts lyk totali wrong cn..
so sucky..

2007-08-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

奇怪的言语
莫名的表情
不解的心情
我有点怀疑

2007-08-25T23:08:00.000+08:00

2 highlights 4 2dae..

1. AFA RE-EXAM
oh well..
had AFA re-exam 2 dae..
tot it wil b tt same old paper..
so didnt study much on it..
juz read thru e FA manual once..
den turn out tt it was a diff paper..
n i SERIOUSLY juz anihw choose 4 some qns..
quite scared wil fail de..
in e end..
i onli had 7 wrong!!
haha..
kinda unexpected..
coz i muz say..
my FA is e worst..
so i quite worried wil fail..
but e result was so unexpected..
i m HAPI!!!

2. Donut Factory @ Suntec
after AFA we headed 2 suntec..
den i heard frm evon abt e donut factory at suntec..
so decided 2 look 4 it..
found it..
so decided 2 queue 4 it..
so me n jh queued..
n guess hw lg we queued??
34 mins ONLY!!!
can u imagine??
if u were 2 queue at raffles city..
at least 2 hrs sia!!
over at suntec is SOOOO FAST!!
i bought 4 double choc tis tym..
but wen i went hm n ate 1..
HMM...
e choc filling inside was kinda lil..
as compared 2 e 1 i bought at RC..
quality diff..
dey shld work on it..
oh..
n der is a diff in price oso..
but i nt sure whether RC nw gt increase ant..
coz e previous tym i buy is cheaper..

aniwae..
went back 2 TCC 2 get my pay..
n it was quite busy wen i reach..
got my pay..
bought a dozen of donuts 4 dem..
wondering wat shld i buy e nxt tym wen i go back..
coz alredi bought famous amos n donut factory le..
duno wat other special tings cn i buy..
shal tink abt it another tym..

nw gt more impt tings 2 do..
e walkathon cards..
gt alot of leftover blank cards..
nxt thurs sure kena shoot liao..
haiz..

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